It was a strange today, one strange day. Yet again one of those days when my emotions fluctuated in a flip flop manner and worse, I was not able to hide those. This whole blog might appear very confusing but that is how the day was. The day started with a confusing decision, whether to attend the first lecture or not. And finally, after a lot of this and that I attended it. Things started off on a happy note with the first class getting finished at just an hour instead of two. We all went to our favourite food joint and that is where this all stated. I seriously hate poseurs. I hate people who behave in two different ways at two different places. I hate people who try to enter my space. And to add to all this, what if they have all the attributes and hobbies that I hate. I define that as an awesome hate effect. That’s what I was going through. In fact I have now started hating the mere presence of few people around me. Two of them for sure. I have been a people’s person or rather am a people’s person and have never felt like this before. But for these two, either I am overreacting or I have changed.
I am sure that this hate has not grown in a day or two. It took some time to build this. But the hate feeling soared up exponentially today because that very presence of the person was affecting my space. That was affecting my interaction with someone whom I treat to be very special. That presence caused me behave awkward with someone whom I wish to share all my emotions with. That presence caused the person to walk off even without asking me if I want to come along. That person is special to me and at some point of time I felt as if I am losing that person to someone with whom I don’t even want to share space. I was not sure about all this and felt that I was just thinking too much. I thought that I was the only one who did not like that presence of the person, but then suddenly two more joined me. We never bitched about it but understood very fast that we all were on the same boat creating the same sense of dislike.
For once I am not sure how to behave or what to do. Should I talk to the ‘special person’ because I want that person to know this, as we promised that we will not hide anything we don’t like? Or should I just let it go and see how things work out because I am not sure as to how that person feels about the ‘presence’? It’s a confusing day and given that tomorrow is my birthday I need a miracle to happen so that my mood gets better in some two hours. I will act, at least for today because I don’t want to hurt a numerous good friends for all that is happening to me.
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2 comments:
awwww..*hugs* Who are these 2 idiots?? come online soon.. we'll figure how to fix them right!! and m actually actually jealous.. whoz this other special one haan? I'll fix u right regarding tht..*hmph*
I will fix both of em up soon...i hope....and do not worry...and dont even get jealous...you are already at the acme....no one can touch u :)....*HUGS*
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