I am confused...I am losing...or I am just reacting too much

It was a strange today, one strange day. Yet again one of those days when my emotions fluctuated in a flip flop manner and worse, I was not able to hide those. This whole blog might appear very confusing but that is how the day was. The day started with a confusing decision, whether to attend the first lecture or not. And finally, after a lot of this and that I attended it. Things started off on a happy note with the first class getting finished at just an hour instead of two. We all went to our favourite food joint and that is where this all stated. I seriously hate poseurs. I hate people who behave in two different ways at two different places. I hate people who try to enter my space. And to add to all this, what if they have all the attributes and hobbies that I hate. I define that as an awesome hate effect. That’s what I was going through. In fact I have now started hating the mere presence of few people around me. Two of them for sure. I have been a people’s person or rather am a people’s person and have never felt like this before. But for these two, either I am overreacting or I have changed.
I am sure that this hate has not grown in a day or two. It took some time to build this. But the hate feeling soared up exponentially today because that very presence of the person was affecting my space. That was affecting my interaction with someone whom I treat to be very special. That presence caused me behave awkward with someone whom I wish to share all my emotions with. That presence caused the person to walk off even without asking me if I want to come along. That person is special to me and at some point of time I felt as if I am losing that person to someone with whom I don’t even want to share space. I was not sure about all this and felt that I was just thinking too much. I thought that I was the only one who did not like that presence of the person, but then suddenly two more joined me. We never bitched about it but understood very fast that we all were on the same boat creating the same sense of dislike.
For once I am not sure how to behave or what to do. Should I talk to the ‘special person’ because I want that person to know this, as we promised that we will not hide anything we don’t like? Or should I just let it go and see how things work out because I am not sure as to how that person feels about the ‘presence’? It’s a confusing day and given that tomorrow is my birthday I need a miracle to happen so that my mood gets better in some two hours. I will act, at least for today because I don’t want to hurt a numerous good friends for all that is happening to me.

Life..the IIT way

I am an IIT student and that happened on 21st July when I joined VGSOM at IIT Kharagpur. Kharagpur is a small city, or better town, approximately 2 hours away from Kolkata. I don’t know much about the town because since the day I have come here at the campus, I have never been to the town. It’s not that the town is an amazing place to visit I am missing something by not going there but the truth is that town has not much to offer apart from few malls and a Railway Platform which is the largest in Asia. Let’s now concentrate on the IIT part. I still remember that day when I entered the campus for the first time. It was raining, not heavy though. It was not that first time that I was visiting IIT KGP. I came here in 2006 also to attend Spring Fest. But this time the timeframe, the story and the emotions were completely different. I was going to be a part on an Institute that every engineering aspirant dreamt of. Though they dream more about getting a B Tech from here and not MBA but then even the MBA from here is worth it. The very idea of spending coming two years at a college and that too IIT was kicking. I felt proud when I was entering the campus. Felt proud for becoming an IITan, 7 years late though. Campus here is huge, some 1200 acres in total. All the students, most of them, have their own cycles to roam in the campus. My school is some 500 mts away from my hostel so cycle is a need. But its fun. Riding a cycle, racing with mates, doing stunts on it, its all fun. Initial few days were roller coaster. Lots of classes, lots of assignments and on the top of that few of faculty members were not satisfied with that so they came up with surprise tests in their subjects. It was all difficult in the beginning but now, who cares. I think I am gelling with the system now and these pains are becoming part of life fast. IIT can boast of having the best infrastructure in India. You name it and they have it here. Olympic sized swimming pool, a Cinema hall sized gym, wood finished Indoor stadium, three huge auditoriums and what not. Frankly speaking I am yet to see places.
But for a person like me, people are more important than buildings. I guess I got lucky here also. Got an old friend who joined the college along with me, so finding friends initially was never a problem. I already had someone whom I could call friend. People are good, generally. Few of them are very rude also but they are everywhere, not just here. What? Did u say girls? What is that? Ohh ok...we do not have a lot of them here in IIT. Engineering colleges are famous for not having girls. Though my engineering college was an exception. But then situation is real bad here. I pity the UG guys. They need girls at their age. Not having girls to hang around with might affect their growth, mentally and physically. But why just UG. The situation at PG is no great. Its a well known fact here in IIT that the school of management and school of law are the only places in IIT which can boast of having beautiful girls in the campus. Its true. VGSOM has been a leader in this aspect till last year. This year we are facing stiff competition from Law School. But I am still not satisfied. The reason being that I left a B- School (yes its your college sheen) which is like Pacific Ocean of crazy beauties and I am comparing VGSOM with that college in this regard. I know that the comparison is not fair, but cannot help it. Wuff...lots about girls. Enough for today.
Life is good here. I just hope the placements happen on the same lines at it happened last year.
May god bless us all!!!